I'm having one of those days where I have several great ideas but when I finally got to my laptop I was brain dead. As if I wasn't capable of just coming up with something super on the spot. Well I guess I'm not...... Perhaps it's because I'm tired and I should have written earlier? Oh slacking, I'm so great at it......
I don't recall in my youth ever having as much trouble with my memory but my mom says I have always had a bad memory. Now days I sometimes can't remember what happened the day before. I'll leave a room to go to another and not even remember why I did it. Please someone tell me this is normal and I'm not going to be the youngest case of Alzheimer's in the record books.
While we are on the topic, my grandmother got diagnosed with Alzheimer's when I was probably fifteen and ever since then I have been terrified of losing my memory. As if one day it's just going to be gone overnight and I'm going to wake up and not know who I am. I know that's not how it really works but the mind of a crazy lady works in different ways ;) The disease is such a hard one to understand and I have to admit that for several years I didn't even want to see my grandma because of all the pain it caused me. Yes I realize this is selfish and makes me feel badly but it was just too unbearable at the time.
For years I have held on to random things that I always thought would keep my memories alive and I've also taken millions of pics. Pictures, after all, are a forever memory. This of course caused a lot of boxes and clutter. Thankfully I realized this before I ended up on an episode of Hoarders but it was still tough to let go of some of the stuff (it's an on going battle). Now I just stick to my pictures. Computer space isn't as messy!
*Whitney and I 2010
Let me be the one to say it: You do NOT have Alzheimer's! Every day people come in my office saying that same thing about forgetting why they went into a room and I think to myself "yep, me too!". It's really more of a distractibility thing than a memory problem. I can give you a whole battery of tests to prove it if you want :)
ReplyDeleteSorry about your gma. My gpa had Parkinson's and the dementia that can accompany it, so I understand how tough that is. The good news is that we understand far more about than we did in the past, we can catch it early and slow down the progression with medications, and you can do things now to prevent the likelihood of dementia later on. Yes, some of it is genetics, but you also have a strong influence on your body by the way you treat it and I'm pretty sure you are doing a good job. So don't worry yourself crazy, I promise you do not have dementia! Love ya Crysie!