Most people know that the Stichlers are not very forgiving people. We can hold grudges like no others. Not really something to be proud of but it's the truth. If you do me wrong it's most likely that I won't be speaking with you again or at least not on my own free will. I'm lucky to have a lot of great friends so the loss of one really doesn't make much of an impact on my life.
I am not perfect in any way, shape, or form nor do I claim to be but I also don't do shitastic things to my friends. I am a woman of my word and I like to think I am a good person. This is why I tend to take people not being good friends so personally. I think that it's pretty much common sense that you shouldn't do to others what you wouldn't want done to you. People mess up, it's just apart of life, but most things are preventable if you just use your brain.
It would be nice to believe that people can change but I have a hard time grasping that concept. It's been my experience that once you figure out a person is a certain way then they usually remain that way. In the last year I've really tried to be more forgiving. There are some things that just aren't' forgivable in my eyes though. Am I a bad person for expecting people in my life to treat me good and not lie or do shitty things to me?
I have learned that it takes twice as much energy to dislike someone then it does to like someone. Maybe I won't have certain people in my life when they've done me wrong but eternally I'd like to forgive them and move on. Life is too short to hold grudges so I'm really going to work even harder on this after dooms day. Forgiveness equals peace of mind in a way and the older I get the more I want that.
*Me during my sophomore year in High school
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