Day 4 - Time

Time sure does fly by! I swear when I was in high school a week felt like a month and a month felt like a year. It felt like Friday would never come and that the school days just dragged on. Oh how I wish I could go back to those days and just enjoy it.

It seems that every year since I graduated has gone by faster and faster and honestly it terrifies me. I feel like I'll never have time to get everything accomplished that I want to. Like the last 10 years of my life have just flown by and I didn't even notice. It's crazy! How can I already be turning thirty when I feel like twenty was just yesterday?

So now that time seems to go by so much faster I try to embrace the good in my life. I've been working on spending quality time with the people that are dearest to me and clearing out the people that create chaos. I've also been trying to spend more time with my family. My niece is two and half now and I don't want to miss a thing with her. Before I'd be to busy doing a million things but now I try to see her at least once a week.

You never know what tomorrow will bring. I had a hard hit with this reality last year when a friend from school committed suicide. It wasn't the first time I had dealt with a suicide (sadly I have known two other people that have done the same selfish act) but this one really hit home. Noah and I went to school together from seventh grade until we graduated and had a couple years where were hanging out with the same group of people so we had spent a good amount of time together. He was the kindest person ever and I always enjoyed running into him.

When I got the news of his death I was devastated. I just remember thinking, Why? How does a handsome young man who was loved by so many decide that life just wasn't worth it? How does it get that bad? I am no stranger to depression but death has never been an option for me. I had no idea how hard his battle had been. You never know who is silently suffering so now I try to watch how I make people feel. By no means have I perfected this skill but I mind my P's and Q's a lot more now days.

*Ella and I 2010