I have always been known and as a busy body. For most of my life there's hardly ever been down time. I kept busy during my school days with sports, orchestra, and working. Then into adult life I just kept things rolling. There's always a birthday, baby shower, wedding, camping trip, ladies night, or any other kind of event and until recently I would attend them all. I also took Gymnastics classes, played softball, and dodge ball at different times. Not to mention having two to three jobs on top of that. "No" wasn't really in my vocabulary. My theory was that if someone took the time to invite me to something then they must really want me there and I don't want to hurt my friends feelings.
Having as many friends as I do it's easy to have full weekends or even weeks. There seems to always be someone who wants to hang out and I love my friends and want to see them. In the last year or two I've finally realized that I'm not super woman anymore and it's perfectly normal to just say no when I already have things going on. No more running around like crazy trying to make every event in a day that I was invited to. There are still times when I'm double (or maybe triple) book myself and I just don't know how I did it for so long. I couldn't even tell you how many things I've gone to that I didn't want to. Maybe is my new favorite word because if I say yes than I'm going whether I want to or not. :)
I never liked spending time by myself because I feared it so much. Being alone with my crazy brain is just dangerous at times (tehe). I worry about the stupidest stuff and create havoc in my own life from it. I'm not even sure what changed but now I enjoy staying home having me time. This is something I never thought I would appreciate. People have always said to me that I needed to have down time and I never believed them. Boy was I wrong and I think I might like it a little too much now days. I have a new love for peace and quiet!
*My senior picture
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