Why the hell am I nesting? Surely I'm not pregnant because it's just not possible, literally. I've never felt such a need to have things clean and uncluttered before. Perhaps "30" is my child? It's coming so soon now and I just need to prepare for it.
I want everything in my house to match suddenly. I've always been kind of a mismatchy person. I didn't care if things went together as long as I had everything I needed. Now I have all these mismatched items all over my house and it's slowly driving me crazy. I also want nice stuff now. Bargain is my middle name so I would often by stuff at garage sales and stuff and just go with it. This will no longer suffice though. Not having a job is really not helping me make my house more finished.
Since I've been jobless it hasn't given me a chance to go through some stuff and I'm starting to make progress. While doing this I have found some random things and just wondered why I ever kept them so long. I've always been the person to keep something because I may need it someday. Ouch, that adds up to a lot of crap! I certainly do not want to become a hoarder as I already have the title as cat lady. Mixing the two would definitely drive away my boyfriend now and any suitors to follow ;)
Maybe this is just apart of becoming the new and improve Crysie? I don't really like change much but this change is a comforting change. Like I'm really taking control of what I want and maybe have wanted for much longer. For years I feel like I held back from things I wanted and I can't really explain why but I've gained a new sense of freedom in the last several months. It's a good feeling to be uncluttering my life and I will for sure continue to do so.
*Me in 2008
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